It all got too much for me.
I drifted away into my own little world.
Perhaps this should not have surprised me.
Ever since being viciously bullied at school, I’d always had deep issues with my self-esteem and had even suffered from cyclical depression.
But until now, I’d always found a way to ignore these thoughts and feelings, mostly by throwing myself into work and falling back on my partner for emotional support.
But suddenly, those ‘rugs’ had been pulled out from under my feet.
I had nowhere left to hide from the crippling doubts and fear that plagued my thoughts mercilessly all day and night.
I’m not saying my fiancé didn’t try everything she could to support me… she did.
But, shameful as this is to admit, I blocked her out.